Do You ever just feel overwhelmed by the Amazing Love of God? I know I do! It makes me wonder why my faith can be so small and why I doubt when I know He has his best for me. I find myself walking around trying to figure it all out. I work out the ending in my head that I think will be best and then I try to make that happen. I will control, sometimes unconsciously, to get the outcome I think I want.
There were many times in my relationship with Richard that I wanted my way. I hope I'm not the only one that can say that! I often thought if he ever proposes it will likely be over a nice dinner,maybe candle light, and that would have been fabulous. But God said, Really? You think that is all I have for you? I can do better than that. When Richard proposed in front of over 200 women during a talk on purity, I was overwhelmed! Not only did Go show me how much Richard loved me, God showed me how He loved me.
I continue to see events like this play out in my life. I had a dream for more than 10 years to attend Carol Kent's speak up conference in Michigan. As only God does, I not only have attended the conference twice, Carol Kent is now a friend and mentor in my life. She has encouraged Richard and I to write a book sharing our story. We have begun writing and have had a request from a large publisher for a proposal. This happens only through Gods Love, His plan, and His timing.
With a book proposal in front of us, I knew that I would need to find a job that allowed me more time to write, but I was going to be sad to leave my current job that I loved. I was certain I would not be happy at my new one, it was just going to fill a need. I put out a few resumes and nothing happened. A few weeks went by and I received a phone call from someone I hadn't seen in five years asking if I would be interested in interviewing at a spa in Dallas. Having spent most of my life in salon and spas and being @SpaBarbie, of course I was interested! She had no idea of the timing or her obedience. Only through Gods love did I get a job with such amazing people, doing what I love, and feeling like I make a difference. I also get to spend all day Tuesdays writing. Overwhelmed!
Gods Love is amazing! His ways are not our ways. He has so much more for us than we can imagine. I kept saying "The stars would have to align for this to happen", it turns out God is in the business of aligning the stars. When we walk with Him and we make ourselves available, God can use us in ways we never thought possible.
"My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts," says the LORD. "And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine." Isaiah 55:8 nlt